The Last Days of Summer has lost it's sizzle for the moment. I'm thinking of ditching it and using the scraps for something else and starting again. Right from the start I knew it wasn't the right mood for what I wanted. Eh, maybe I'll uplaod it later if I decide to finish it, but it'll be under a different name. I want the song to be good, but it's hard to get that polished and professional feel on a song, considering I've only done this high quality once before. I guess I'm just being super-optimistic that I can recapture that sound, and I'm sure it's not a one off thing. I'm not as sure, so I'm going to plug away at my music anyway, and try to live up to my own expectations, and I guess that's all I can really do. Composing and producing good music is hard. I have a lot of respect for people who can do it consistently. I look up to people like cornandbeans and Waterflame, MaestroRage, ParagonX9, rig, SBB and other top quality musicians. And looking at Waterflame's last news post, how he missed a deadline he made himself for his fans, I have even more respect for these artists, as Waterflame has given proof that even the top guns have their rough patches, I think ParagonX9 had one too. It's all to do with personal standards and perspectives, and your willingness to create. I respect that despite their rough patches they pull through and come out the other side as if they never went through that rough patch, they keep working, and they rebuild their confidence and keep their music sounding brilliant. So just lately, I've come to an understanding, and I've been able to piece together my music now, like I had wanted to from when I started. But it's still as hard as if I were just learning, it's confusing, it's tough to get inspired. I've got tons of ideas and they're waiting to come to life. I have no idea how to piece them together, I try logic, but it gets messed up and fails horribly.
Despite how it sounds like I'm in a rut, I'm not, I'm doing great. My last song raised the bar higher than I had thought possible from 2007, but I'm here, and I'm willing to work through the tiny little issues, get past the tough stuff, and hope that it's all smooth sailing by the end of it. I'm excited about the future, and I hope that my music will be seen at a level that it can be compared with the great composers of newgrounds, and I hope that I can prove to myself that I can stick through with my commitments, no matter how rough a patch I may go through. Right now I want to compose classical, but I'm not sure what exactly, I want to start fresh on Last Days of Summer, but I think it's most important for me to take it all just one step at a time, and that way I know that I'll reach my goal at the end.

Cheers.

WB